I am so thankful for the TTC community. The ladies in our
community are amazing! We encourage and inspire each other, grieve with
others who are likewise suffering or discouraged and celebrate with
overwhelming joy a success of any kind and especially a BFP! For so many
months, I kept my struggle with infertility between my husband and myself. It
wasn't that I was ashamed, I am just a private person. Sharing my
struggle and my story is the best decision I ever made. It has been
healthy to share the pain and fears and also to have a strong network for
support, guidance and reassurance.
The Struggle is part of the
Story. The
injections, medicines, countless Doctor appointments, egg retrieval, embryo
growth, embryo transfer, staggering financial costs, emotional turmoil and
stress, all comprise the struggle. However, these struggles have made me
a stronger person, a more compassionate individual and have drawn me closer
to God. The struggle goes beyond the
obvious.
Even though I have gained the tremendous blessing of support
through sharing, it remains a struggle to share.
Many women who conceive naturally would not consider to share the
news of their pregnancy at only one month along. There are still many
critical milestones ahead in the baby’s growth...we have not even heard a
heartbeat or had a sonogram! You would
think finally getting a BFP (big fat positive) would alleviate the apprehension,
but it certainly hasn’t. Psalm 34:4
comes to mind, “I sought the Lord, and He answered me and delivered me from all
my fears.” I think it is only natural,
in a sensitive situation like early pregnancy to be worried about a lack of
symptoms, sharp pains, and even comparing your own Beta numbers to other ladies
Beta numbers. I have to continue relinquishing
my fears to God who already has a perfect plan.
The past few days, I have been battling with myself over whether
to share my news so early and the most appropriate way to share the BEST news I have ever received in my life!
(I was doing this battling, while fighting the urge to do a backflip and shout
to everyone I see “I am pregnant!!”)
I am keeping positive thoughts, am overjoyed beyond measure and I am inviting
prayer and support for our growing child.
I would ask those who know David and me personally, please don’t share our special news before
we have the chance to do so! You are
our most treasured of friends. I know, just by your interest in our situation
and your love and caring messages, this is not too much to ask. I have waited through years and throngs of
negative pregnancy tests to have finally heard the words that play like
beautiful music to my ears, “you are definitely
pregnant!” Praise God! LET IT BEE!!!
I know that my news can bring pain to many of you struggling and waiting
patiently for your own positive outcome.
This too is part of the struggle.
I refused to allow myself not to allow joy for others. I would think why
her not me. Then I would ask myself
again…why not her? It would help me every
time. My prayer is that this step in my story would serve to strengthen our
community with hope. This is exactly
what your stories have done for me.
Thank you!
David and I are overjoyed by the news that this round of IVF may
just bring us our long awaited BABY BEE!
I am excited to continue sharing our journey, having you cheer us on and
having your support and prayer. I thank
God every time I think of you! Philippians 1:3
“Rejoice
in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice!”
Philippians 4:4
Beta #1 done! |
The best $2 I spent on this sash to surprise my family with the news of our Beta results!! |
So happy for you!! 💗 @ttc.babyjohnson
ReplyDeleteVERY happy for you. Can't wait to read about your new journey. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing you are so brave and I pray for you and your sweet baby to have a healthy and easy pregnancy! God bless you and David your both going to be amazing parents!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing you are so brave and I pray for you and your sweet baby to have a healthy and easy pregnancy! God bless you and David your both going to be amazing parents!
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